If you live in memory too deeply it can depress.... I have been visiting all the Christmas memories stored inside my brain. Before My parents died. The Big Family gatherings first in Watertown and later in Ellendale. Piles of presents so high you could get lost in them. Then when our kids were small, and we lived on the farm. Cold, White, Christmas. In Germany with a real tree and real candles on it. WOW. The last 25 years in Illinois.. memories. I admit, I am a bit blue... I only know how to get out of this funk by serving others...which I will spend part of this day doing.